my story...
this is a story about a girl...a simple story, yet meant so much to her.about her and her love for a guy.
simply that she loves him so much but he hardly knows.
they started off simply as friends.
everyday they see each other in school...they played and laughed and joked...
now this sounds really familiar...because everyone seems to have started off somewhere like that...
they played silly games.
they talked.
they grew up together.
they shared problems.
he shared his problems with her.
telling her his relationship problems.
now you think that they'll get together do you?
doubt so...
now you must be thinking, it has to be a one sided thing on the girls part.
well you are somewhere there...
her heart aches whenever he tells her about other girls.
but she listens intently. because she cares.
she gives her utmost attention,
simply because she only want to remember him smiling.
so it hurts her, because she's falling for him most definitely...
she don't know whether he knows it or not.
what she's sure though, is that, he loves many others but her.
so she cried. she simply loves him. she doesn't know what to do.
was love suppose to be like that?
things are not so simple anymore.
there are times she is so tired she's a wreck.
she just wished she never knew him.
maybe if she don't see him, she wouldn't feel so much.
but it's simply love. who can fault anyone for that.
and so they carried on their simple friendship.
meeting up now and then...encouraging each other.
making fun of each other.
listening to each other. how we've grown.
so this simple love grows.
so deep rooted, nourished with her tears and memories.
until one fine day, she decided maybe it's time to show him how she really feels.
deep down inside, she knows the answer to the simple truth.
but what she wants is to hear it from him.
well of course the truth hurts.
but they are still friends.
simply that things can only go as far as that.
it's been more than 5 yrs now.
this simple friendship has matured.
they still play and joke and talk.
now maybe you've heard of this story before.
because you've been there before? or because you've heard it from me before.
one fine day he asks her out for dinner.
eager like he has never been before.
she is puzzled. but she didn't ask why.
until he brought her to the jewelry store to try out rings.
he wants to buy a pair. one for his girlfriend and another for himself.
now you must think, the girl must be really hurt...
she thought so too...
she gave her most sincere opinions. and helped him out.
she didn't feel hurt.
she didn't cry.
she tried to recall how much she use to love him
but she simply couldn't remember.
he walked her home that night.
they played and talked along the way.
simple and normal as can be.
i can raise my head high and say this love that's been planted in my heart for as long as can be has finally died.
how much space it has taken up, i do not know.
how far it has branched out, i do not know.
when it left me? i do not know.
what i do know is, i never regretted allowing it to grow.
this is not the end of my simple story.
because this friendship will last forever.
now i'm free. free from the burden of the tree that took up so much of me.
life goes on.
will someone occupy this space.
i believe there will be someone.
i know you'll be reading this someday.
and i want you to know that i've never blamed you in any way.
i want you to know, i sincerely wish you and her all the best.
there was no short cut for me.
i think i had to take the longer way.
i'm glad we are still friends.
thank you for being my friend.
posted by pearlewurly @ 3/17/2005 11:25:00 pm
